‘As an Asia Education Leader, before leading others, I must first learn to lead myself.’ This was what our professor told us in the final class of the A-P part in the 2026 Winter Course, and it became the most important realization for me during my time in AELC.

Completing AELC is not easy. First, it requires the courage to take the very first step and face your own self-doubt. Many of us who grew up in an Asian cultural context tend to lack confidence and question ourselves. For many students—whether Japanese students or international students in the Graduate School of Education, including myself—the main reason we hesitate to join AELC is English.

We unconsciously compare ourselves to those who speak English fluently. We worry that our pronunciation is not good enough. We keep questioning every sentence we write or say—whether the grammar is correct, whether the expression is good enough. Under this kind of fear, we tend to step back. We look for other things to replace it, to compensate for it, or we lower its importance in our minds until we can convince ourselves: ‘It’s just a course. It doesn’t really matter whether I join or not.’

But how can experiences and moments like these ever be replaced?

In AELC, we discuss important and sometimes controversial topics in education. We get the chance to interact with students from other universities, and even travel to different places. When I think back to the 11 days of the 2025 Summer Course at Korea University, I realize that none of those days can ever be repeated. Discussing topics in class with students from different schools, going back to the homestay at night and working on assignments together, and making the most of every small chance to explore Seoul during such an intensive program—those moments were irreplaceable.

Choosing to step back is instinct. But this time, I wanted to face it.

At the beginning of the program, I was very afraid of speaking English. I couldn’t keep up with the pre-study or the lessons in each part, and I was constantly hoping that the professor would not call my name. So how could I deal with that anxiety? I realized I needed more practice. I pushed myself to attend English classes, read English articles, and speak with international friends.

By the time of the 2026 Winter Course, I was able to stand on stage and give a presentation in English with confidence. In that moment, I truly felt my own growth. I also realized that if I had given up this opportunity because of fear, I would have stayed where I was—always behind that fear.

AELC is not only a place for academic exchange and learning, but also a chance to step outside of your comfort zone. Every professor and every student in AELC supported me, stayed with me, and witnessed this challenge I set for myself. And through this experience, I found my way to face fear. I learned how to lead myself.

From now on, I believe I can move forward with more confidence as a leader, contributing to the progress of education.

Finally, I want to say this: fear is just a feeling. But we have the ability to act before that feeling disappears. Accept fear, and let it become part of your comfort zone.